OH HOW HE LOVES US!

I have to share a personal victory as I am exploding with God's love and mercy today! Almost a year ago I set out to make what seemed like an impossible change in my life. I wanted to let go of my personal crutch that I had become fully dependent on for fulfillment in life, and instead, I wanted to grab a hold of God and be completely satisfied in Him, knowing that He is enough and everything else is a loss compared to knowing Him. As I said, this seemed IMPOSSIBLE, especially with the deep habits that had built up in my life and shaped much of who I had become and the everyday decisions I made. In the midst of this pursuit, I was faced with the trial of letting go of, forgiving, and moving on from a person who hurt me deeper than I knew a person could possibly hurt someone. A fear of this person built up in my heart and Satan delighted in using the situation to torture me mentally, emotionally, physically, and spiritually. For many months I found myself completely broken, in deep pain, and a slave to this person.

I had to see this person last night.

And the victory was mine in Christ! I was able to show this person God's grace, mercy, and love. I know with all my heart that it was not me sitting with and conversing with this person, but Christ, and I pray they saw Christ sitting with them and not me. I had worked so hard to forgive this person and to see myself as God sees me, instead of seeing myself through this person's eyes as small and worthless. In coming to see myself as loved, holy, and a bride of the King, I know that I am loved to the max by my Savior, and so I can live confidently and joyfully without fear of what other people say or think of me. I now know that I am HEALED and this person no longer has power over my life! PRAISE GOD! I honestly believed that I would never get to a place in my life where I could let go of my personal crutch. God did the impossible in my life, once again...I am no longer hung up on anyone but HIM! HE is more than Enough. I am HIS bride. I am HIS beloved. I am HIS child. OH HOW HE LOVES US!

"My Beloved is mine, and I am HIS!" ~Song of Solomon 2:16

Surrender to Him, whatever your personal crutch is, whatever you are holding on to. His plans and His love are so much greater. Don't know how to begin to let go? Pray for God to turn your heart back towards Him. Pray for Him to SMOTHER you in His love and to reveal His delight and His affections for you. Don't believe He delights in you? Read Psalm 139 and BELIEVE what it says. His love doesn't just apply to those around you, it applies to YOU too! Dive into the Word, soak in His love, and surrender! Fall in love with your Creator!

"Submit yourselves, then, to God. Resist the devil, and he will flee from you. Come near to God and he will come near to you. Wash your hands, you sinners, and purify your hearts, you double-minded. Grieve, mourn and wail. Change your laughter to mourning and your joy to gloom. Humble yourselves before the Lord, and he will lift you up." ~James 4:7-10